Categories Fanworks

Echo of My Thoughts – by Lorian

For Darkenaz, featuring her shapeshifting dragon character, Jev.

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I dig my talons in the flesh of the man who fucks me. I bury deeper and I know the man doesn’t mind it. I see in his mind a devious and twisted need and I find it thrilling.  My female body presses hard to his, he moves hungrily, the blood of the woman we killed, dripping between us. Thick strings sticking to us, while her dead eyes seem to follow our passion, as we make her blood live. His thoughts echoe in mine, and I can feel his ecstasy. So well fitting to the one he shows outside.

I lean to his ear, pointy one, elf-like.

“This drives me so much… all of this” I push him harder inside me with my legs. His body is like made for this, toned, well-built, but not too much, filled with energy and passion.

I needed this.

“She begged for mercy in an enthralling way…” he forces deeper, I feel a pleasant shiver down my spine. He reads my mind just as I read his, he knows what pace, what pressure I like most. I love all kinds of sex… but some things never change. I have my own sets of favorites.

And I know what makes him abandon.

What makes him hard most. Violence. And control. Pain. Not only of his victims.

I pull him even harder, fingers deep in the skin on his back, droplets of blood, blue, like the clear sky.

“All humans beg for mercy” I purr, my blue hair receiving him and I allow him to bury his hand in my tangles. My thighs press hard, harder, I feel him  spreading me.

“Intoxicating…” he whispers in my ear and I know he really thinks so – just like me. Humans, begging, bleeding… perfect aphrodisiac. For both of us.

His shadows penetrate my body alongside with him, sensing me, passing my pleasure to him, giving me a taste of his own rapture, and this is so similar to what I know of black-flame elves… but also different… a new species to fuck, an elf yes, but not completely.

And I have never had an elf yet…

My hips meet him at a faster pace, we are close, both. I drip between my thighs, my body receives exactly the treatment I like.

He hits the spot.

I roll over him, to stride him, to look at him when he rides his climax, look at him as he lays under me, pulsing inside. My hands bury in his short thick hair, pull, hard and I sigh, when he fills me with his release. I feel his climax, when my own rushes through my body. His own pleasure transferred between us, drowning us, making our bodies shiver.

Delicious.

I needed it.

I needed it and didn’t even know how much.

His eyes meet mine. Our thoughts intertwine. It’s the first time I can hear my own thoughts in someone’s mind. Someone who is like me, in more than one aspect. He sees this thought too – of course  – and laughs, so beautifully. If I was a lesser being, it would bring me to my knees. But I am not.

My muscles relax, I still twitch between my legs, I feel he throbs too. We both love it. We love fucking. I hope this week will be long and allows me to go as deep as I need.

The throbs slowly fade, pulling me back to reality, leaving me pleased and filled.

For now, I think.

“Your world never ceases to intrigue me” he muses, slowly separating from me, standing up, He finds his scattered clothes; pulls up the tight black trousers and feathered shirt. “But humans feel the same fear and pain. That never changes.”

“They are perfect playthings. Perfect amusement” I stand up as well, pulling something on myself as well.

Devin’s t-shirt.

Fuck it.

He is absent and I don’t need to wait for him. I never needed it.

I am a dragon, and I am one to rule. I am the one to  play the winning figure in this game. Even if he is so under my skin…

I see an amused glint in Lorian’s black eyes. He told me about his women. I wonder suddenly, if he would wait for any of them in a way I wait for Devin.

“Waiting is good, Jevon” he pins his upper shirt with an azure gem. “But only if you get a good reward.”

Now, I want him to not be able to look into my mind. But… I see it in him as well. Years of pain. Cruel suffering he takes in himself willingly and with sick joy. Twisted. But in some way… tempting.

He doesn’t smile anymore. He is torn between two women, between his desire for life and never ending agony. And he knows I see it all. Possibly first time in his long life. I am a first person who see past his masks. I know he finds it both intriguing, attractive and uncomfortable.

We are pulling all out on the plain sight.

“Time to show hospitality to our guest” I grin. No more doubts. Not when he can read all of them.  I know he doesn’t know nor care about Devin.

I could not think.

Not delve into this.

But Lorian seems to understand, in some dettached, alien way. Fey kind is both passionate and cold. A mix that can be terrifying.

I will love to see how much terrifying we can be.

*

“You like it raw?”

Lorian doesn’t feel good in the kitchen. He possibly never had to cook in his palace, which – this time – amuses me. But he is not the type to be offended. He knows his worth, and that is one of the things I like in him. Powerful, like me. But not pushing this, he just beams – tastily – with self confidence.

We are so alike.

I suddenly feel I want to fuck again.

Especially when I see the fearfully open eyes and struggles of the captive man. He possibly sees in us… serial killers, a deadly couple who finds thrill in killing random strangers. He doesn’t even suspect who we really are. Kings. Almost gods to his weak kind.

“Raw has the best taste” I grin at him, a slender finger in my hand.

“I think every good meal needs additional care” Lorian slowly lifts the spoon with meat on it. Her meat, human flesh, so well cooked. He learns kitchen rules, slowly – if we forget the incident with shadows. His playful gaze slowly lands on the captive man, passes him, and lays on me. My smile is cruel, when I bite the finger, savoring the taste of the human woman. I know how cruel my smile can be.

“Please… let me go…” a voice reaches us, the shock has to be big, because he doesn’t recognize his wife’s finger. Strange that he doesn’t. But he will. Now, he almost wets himself.

“Oh, allow us to take care of  you” Lorian puts the spoon again in the pan. “It would be such an ungrateful thing, to just leave us alone, in such an unsatisfied need for being the good hosts.”

“We brim with need” I smile, my smile seems to scare the human even more.

He tries to retreat, when we approach him, two looming figures, powerful in their dominance. Lorian’s shadows lift him up a bit, closing hard on his throat. He moans in pain, but Lorian pulls him ever higher.

I allow my dragon features to bloom. Blue, like the sky. Like Lorian’s blood. Like the eyes of the captive man. I bathe in blue and in my glory, when I become a god of myths before him.  Lorian’s form flickers and becomes more smoky, darker… more dangerous. A shadow incarnate. Which I want to explore later. Let him into my every crevice.

“I like your experimental nature, dragon.”

“And I like your surprises, fae.”

This human isn’t able to comprehend who we are… what we are. If he knew that world he knows is just the beginning, with so many wonders to discover… and of course predators to fear.

He looks at us with a plea in his eyes… I feel how Lorian feeds on his fear. I never met anyone like him. Devin… he would condemn us now. He has his own rules, despises feasting on suffering. An own moral code, which doesn’t include killing for fun.

But Devin is not my god.

“Please… release me, I won’t tell anyone about you…”

The human lost his hope, I can feel it in his mind. Still, it’s natural for humans. To beg.

Lorian chuckles. I like his laugh. Soft, deep… but touched with darkness. Which makes it even more interesting.

“Your wife will surely love to become part of us. Consider it a feast of senses…  she will please us… with her flesh.”

“Eating someone out never had more apt meaning” I add, seeing pure fear widening human’s eyes.

Lorian pats him over his cheek, with a tender move, a kind expression lighting his face. I see that this act becomes too much for the human. This fake care. He knows how to disturb the weak mind.

“Do not worry” I add, dark gleams in my eyes. “We will share with you. The best morsels.”

We would rule the world, if this had chances to last.

But I already savor how much pleasure I can squeeze from Lorian, how much I can give him and take from him. I know he doesn’t belong here and I won’t stop him from returning. But what will be mine, will always be mine.

It will be a glorious week.

Categories Behind the Scenes

Old drawings (2009-2020)

Sometimes I like to look at my old works to see how much I improved. I thought to share some – I tried to pick not so spoilery ones. (I’ve been working on this story for a while… I wrote the first version in 2006)

 

Categories Being a Monster I. – EN

21. Chapter – Jev

The view is so much better from the tenth floor! Dawn casts a purple shadow on the streets between the blocks, skyscrapers and shopping malls, where more and more people are crowding. Tiny ants in a hive. Just as small and insignificant as I once saw them – fit for sex, food, or I can simply tear off their limbs one by one for pure amusement.

When did I start comparing myself to them? Why have I gone so soft? Maybe it’s the thousands of years of loneliness…

I lean my forehead against the cold window and watch the crowd. A few minutes ago he was part of the crowd, but now he’s far away. My throat tightens with anger at the thought of what, or rather who was the reason for him to leave so early.

My hand clenches into a fist, then loosens. What could he have been doing here during the day? He’d be bored out of his mind. Besides, Devin likes his freedom too much. Why should I chain him to myself? Let him live his life.

I’ll do the same.

The water stops splashing and I hear the shower door open. The druid’s thoughts leak out through the bathroom door, left ajar… He misses his mate.

I wish she were here with me. In my bed. The sheets are just as crumpled as at home. I slept badly…

Like I care… But there’s nothing I can do. I hear him whether I want to or not.

Even though I asked her to come with me… Anyway, only two days left and…

His footsteps are as frozen as his thoughts. I love the awkward silence that comes with this. Some people shout, but he seems to be the quiet type. He quickly wraps the towel around his waist.

“How did you get in?”

Is he really standing in my room, or did I drink too much wine last night? Impossible, I only had two glasses. This impostor… it’s not enough that he cheats at the game, he also breaks in here. I’ll call security.

They used to use axes and pitchforks, but times have changed. How they’ve over-complicated their lives!

I draw the curtains and smile as I face the middle-aged, pale, blond man. I’m shocked at how ordinary he is, without his carefully slicked back hair and black shirt, as he rushes toward the phone in a towel.

“Come on, Mr Lockwood… Are you seriously going to call security over a fan?”

He is petrified by the soft calmness of my voice. But especially from my response to what he didn’t say out loud. His brows furrow as he lifts his faded eyes to me. I enjoy the fact that since there is no Alliance Seal on the dragons for him to detect, he has no idea who he’s dealing with.

“It’s a shame, I just wanted to compliment you on the excellent job you did on Emerald Grove’s last boss. Really creative… The druid dragon whose only ability is shape-shifting. The weakest dragon, who conspires for some power and must be executed for it. I loved that he changes shape in phases. My favourite is the green phoenix-tiger. Whatever shape he takes, he can’t change its colour. However, we both know that in the real life this colour is not green. It’s blue.”

His face is gradually losing its shade, he slowly backs away towards the door.

Oh, you’re not going anywhere!

I allow my rage towards the lesser beings to tear apart my years of accumulated inhibitions. All my anger, all my frustration, running under my skin. The fur of my hoodie spreads across my body, my hair becomes one with my spine, descends, lengthens into a tail, my human limbs become paws. My neck stretches, my skull reshapes itself with soft cracks, my teeth become larger and sharper. My horns curve up towards the ceiling, membranous wings protrude from my back.

Freedom tingles. It’s been years since I’ve worn this form. Even now, not in full life size, after all, it would be too conspicuous if I damaged the furniture or the building. But that doesn’t stop me from killing anyone who stands between me and my goal. In this case, a druid. To his credit, he still doesn’t scream, but merely turns on his heel and storms towards the exit.

With a single leap, I lay him on the ground, my clawed fingers digging into the skin above his shoulder blades, drawing blood. Superficial scratches, but deep enough to make him feel the hopelessness of his situation. He flails, but cannot shake me off. The tattoo of the Watchers’ scales is clearly visible on his struggling forearm.

I hold him to the ground, leaning close to his ear. So close that his wet locks of hair move by my breath.

Fucking hell… It’s a fucking dragon! One of the six… The very one that inspired the new expansion. Damn, who would’ve thought they were in this world! And that they’re playing with ROTA. What kind of fucking world-ruling deity plays MMOs? It’s absurd… They’re going to rip my head off… -he gasps uncontrollably, a tear rolling down the bridge of his nose onto the burgundy carpet.

I deeply inhale the scent of his fear. My mouth pulls into a smile, my saliva dribbles from my beastly teeth onto his shoulder. His growing terror lures out his antlers and dragonfly wings.
I invade his mind and speak right there. As clear and loud as his thoughts echo in my head.

Yes, your smell is certainly delicious. I would gladly bite out that soft, throbbing part of your neck.

He freezes.

But you’re doing too good of a job. I love your innovations, your ideas. Even when you make me a traitor and I end up dead in them.

“I’m sorry… I beg you… I’ll do anything, I’ll pay…”

My kind have never been interested in money, fame or anything of that sort. I’m not here to win either. I’m only here to save my honor. I am not a cheater. And you know it exactly, because every agent knows the skills of a dragon. And because you can’t hear your own thoughts because of mine at the moment. Inconvenient, isn’t it? Imagine how I feel in crowded places. So tomorrow, I’m going to request to play separately, outside the arena. Under controlled conditions. Without a team. Against anyone, just for the show. And you will support me. If the organizers are against it, you’ll convince them. Otherwise, I’ll visit you again and do what my green alter ego would do to you.

 

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Categories Being a Monster I. - HU

21. Fejezet – Jev

Mennyivel szebb a kilátás itt a tizediken! A pirkadat lila árnyékot vet a panelek, felhőkarcolók, bevásárlóközpontok közt húzódó utcákra, melyeken egyre több ember nyüzsög. Apró hangyák a bolyban. Épp oly kicsik és jelentéktelenek, amilyennek egykor láttam őket – alkalmasak szexre, élelemnek, vagy egyszerűen puszta szórakozásból egyenként téphetem le a végtagjaikat.

Mikor kezdtem magamat hozzájuk mérni? Miért puhultam el? Talán a sokezeréves magány…

Homlokom a hideg ablaknak támasztva figyelem a forgatagot. Alig néhány perce Ő is a sokaság részét képezte, de mostanra messze járhat. Torkomat harag feszíti, ha csak belegondolok mi, helyesebben ki miatt kellett ilyen korán elmennie.

Kezem ökölbe szorul, majd elernyed. Ugyan, mit csinált volna itt napközben? Végig a szobában unatkozott volna, távol a rivaldafénytől. Különben is; Devin túlságosan szereti a szabadságot. Miért is láncolnám magam mellé? Hadd élje az életét.

Én is azt fogom tenni.

A vízcsobogás abbamarad, hallom, ahogy kinyílik a zuhanykabin. A fürdőszoba résnyire nyitva felejtett ajtaján kiszivárognak a druida gondolatai… A nőjét hiányolja.

„Bárcsak itt lenne. Az ágyamban. Pont olyan gyűrött a lepedő, mint otthon. Rosszul aludtam…”

Érdekel is engem… De nincs mit tenni. Hallom, ha akarom, ha nem.

„Pedig én kértem, hogy jöjjön velem… Sebaj, már csak két nap és…”

Papucsának léptei úgy szakadnak meg, akár a gondolatai. Imádom a kínos csöndet, ami ilyenkor beáll. Van, aki sikít, de úgy fest, ő a némulós fajta. Kapkodva teríti dereka köré a törölközőt.

– Maga meg hogy jutott be?

„Komolyan itt áll a szobámban, vagy megártott volna tegnap a tegnap esti bor? Lehetetlen, csak két pohárral ittam. Ez a szélhámos… nem elég, hogy a játékban csal, még ide is betör. Hívom a biztonságiakat.”

Régebben fejszét és vasvillát fogtak, de változnak az idők. Hogy túlbonyolították az életüket!

Behúzom a függönyt, majd mosolyogva szembe fordulok a középkorú, sápadt, szőke férfival. Magam is megdöbbenek, mennyire átlagos a gondosan hátrafésült haja és fekete inge nélkül, amint egy szál törölközőben a telefonért siet.

– Ugyan, Mr. Lockwood… Komolyan ráhívná a kidobókat egy rajongóra?

Megdermed hangom halk higgadtságától. De főleg attól, hogy arra reagálok, amit hangosan nem mondott ki. Szemöldöke összeszalad, ahogy rám emeli fakó szemeit. Élvezem, hogy mivel a sárkányokon nincs Szövetségi Pecsét amit érzékelhetne, fogalma sincs róla, kivel áll szemben.

– Kár, pedig csak meg akartam dicsérni, milyen kiváló munkát végzett Emerald Grove utolsó főellenségén. Igazán kreatív… A druidasárkány, akinek egyetlen képessége az alakváltoztatás. A leggyengébb sárkány, aki némi hatalomért összeesküvővé válik és emiatt ki kell végezni. Imádtam, hogy fázisonként formát vált. Kedvencem a zöld főnixtigris. Mert ugye, bármilyen alakot ölt, a színét nem tudja megváltoztatni. Azonban mindketten tudjuk, hogy valójában ez a szín nem a zöld. Hanem a kék.

Arca fokozatosan veszít az árnyalatából, lassan az ajtó felé hátrál.

Oh, nem mész te sehová!

Hagyom, hogy az alacsonyabb létformák iránti dühöm szétszaggassa éveken át felgyülemlett gátlásaimat. Összes haragom, csalódottságom végigfut a bőröm alatt. Kapucnim szőrméje szétterjed a testemen, hajam eggyé válik a gerincemmel, leszalad, farokká hosszabbodik, emberi végtagjaim mancsokká változnak. Nyakam megnyúlik, koponyám halk roppanások közepette átrendeződik, fogaim megnőnek, kiélesednek. Szarvaim a plafon irányába görbülnek, hártyás szárnyaim kiválnak a hátamból.

Bizserget a szabadság. Évek óta nem öltöttem fel ezt az alakomat. Most sem teljes életnagyságban, elvégre túl nagy feltűnést keltene, ha kárt tennék a berendezésben, vagy az épületben. Ez viszont nem gátol meg abban, hogy megölhessek akárkit, aki közém és a célom közé áll. Ez esetben egy druidát. Akinek dicséretére váljon, hogy továbbra sem sikít, csupán sarkon fordul és a kijárat felé iramodik.

Egyetlen ugrással a földre terítem, karmos ujjaim lapockái bőrébe mélyednek, vért fakasztanak. Felszíni karcolások, de ahhoz elég mélyek, hogy érezze helyzete kilátástalanságát. Vergődik, de nem tud lerázni. Erőlködő alkarján jól kivehető a Figyelők mérleget ábrázoló tetoválása.

A földhöz szorítom, a füle mellé hajolok. Olyan közel, hogy lélegzetem meglibbenti vizes hajtincseit.

„A rohadt életbe… Ez egy kibaszott sárkány! Egy a hatból… Pont az, amelyik az új kiegészítőt ihlette. Fene gondolta, hogy ebben a világban tartózkodik! És hogy épp a ROTA-val játszik. Melyik elbaszott, világot irányító istenség játszik MMO-kkal? Teljességgel abszurd… Le fogja tépni a fejem…” – Kontrollálatlanul zihál, egy könnycsepp gördül át az orrnyergén, rá a bordó szőnyegre.

Mélyen beszívom félelme illatát. Szám mosolyra húzódik, nyálam bestiális fogaim közül a vállára csorog. Fokozódó rettegése előcsalja agancsait és szitakötőszárnyait.

Behatolok az elméjébe. Egyenesen ott szólalok meg. Oly tisztán és hangosan, ahogy az ő gondolatai visszhangzanak a fejemben.

„Igen, a szaga kétségkívül ínycsiklandó. Örömmel kiharapnám azt a lágyan pulzáló részt a nyakából.”

Ledermed.

„De túl jó munkát végez. Imádom az újításait, az ötleteit. Még akkor is, ha árulónak titulál és kinyírat bennük.”

„Sajnálom… Könyörgöm… Megteszek bármit, fizetek…”

„A fajtámat soha nem érdekelte a pénz, a hírnév, meg az ehhez hasonló alantas dolgok. Én sem a győzelemért vagyok itt. Egyedül a becsületemet akarom menteni. Nem vagyok csaló. Ön pedig ezt pontosan tudja, elvégre minden ügynök ismeri a sárkányok képességeit. És mert jelenleg saját magát se hallja a beáramló gondolataimtól. Kellemetlen, ugye? Képzelheti, mit érzek egy telt arénában. Így hát holnap kérvényezni fogom, hogy a versenyen kívül, elkülönítve játszhassak. Ellenőrzött körülmények között. Csapat nélkül. Bárki ellen, pusztán a show kedvéért. Maga pedig támogatni fog. Ha a szervezők ellenzik, meggyőzi őket. Máskülönben újra felkeresem, és olyat fogok tenni, amit a zöld alteregóm tenne magával.”

 

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